I Need to decide what I'm doing pretty soon, that is whether I'm coming back to Boston in January, because if so, I will need to start looking for apartments. Right now I'm leaning towards the not coming back however. Yea there isn't much going in Jersey for me besides a job, but I didn't even have that in Boston. To be completely honest all I have there is good friends which is great, but at the sametime I can't see my life going anywhere if I'm there. There's nothing to motivate me, and there doesn't seem to be anything that will keep me there after I graduate anyway. Its a tough decision but one that seems a little bit one-sided at the moment with all arrows pointing towards "not going back to Northeastern." I had never been so unhappy in my life as I was this summer, it even reached a point where I stopped drinking and hardly ever hung-out with anyone besides Jeff.
2001-2002 was the most amazing year of my life, I met so many people, some who I will have as friends for ever. I also learned a thing or two about partying and even almost joined a fraternity, all around it was amazing. 2002-2003 I expected it to be a continuation of Freshmen year, but I was so wrong. Things changed alot, I developed bonds with people I only occasionally hung out with the year before. I eneded up moving off-campus before the year was over, to an apartment that I never really liked from the beginning, but still made the best of it. 2003-2004 When I came back in January I never though that things would have been so different. People who used to spend every second of everyday together no longer saw each other unless there was a reason too. Everyone had grown-up just a little bit more in such a short period of time. Everyone except me, I still wanted to be able to drink until 6 in the morning pass out and wake-up on someone else's couch. I still wanted to have an infinite number of things to do on a Saturday night, wake-up the next morning and know that I have a 10 page paper to write knowing that I only had 3 pages done so far. As I have had the entire summer to think about what it is that I ultimately want out of my own life, it still brings me to a fork in the road. Which tells me that I still have some growing up of my own to do.   ¶ 1:19 PM